Monkey on His Back

A science fiction novella originally published in the June 1960 issue of ''Galaxy'' magazine. The story presents a gripping narrative that explores themes of identity, memory, and the burdens of morality within a futuristic setting. Through its complex yet relatable protagonist, the author examines the psychological elements of confronting one’s past and the internal struggles that result from it. The tale follows John Zarwell, a man grappling with fragmented memories and an elusive identity as he undergoes psychoanalysis on an alien planet called St. Martin's. Through a series of intense comanalysis sessions with psychologist Milton Bergstrom, Zarwell experiences vivid recollections of past events where he played pivotal roles in uprisings and rebellions across various worlds. His struggles with the moral implications of his actions and his desire for peace culminate in the realization that he is haunted by a ''monkey on his back,'' symbolizing the inescapable call to assist those who suffer injustice. As he connects with a figure named Vernon Johnson, who seeks his help in another political struggle, Zarwell grapples with the choice between his inclination to help and his longing for a peaceful life away from conflict. The novella deftly blends elements of action, psychological thrill, and science fiction to delve into the complexities of altruism and personal freedom.